Fights, Frustration, the Finale

I'm a writer by trade and I haven't written on this blog in five months.

There is no excuse for it.

But if I may offer a feeble one, I was busying dating Ms. S but that's over now.

I plan on being a free agent for at least the rest of the summer and then I'll see what type of free agent offers are out there come September. The next relationship, if there is to be one any time soon, will definitely be on my terms. I know for a fact that I compromised way too much with Ms. S and in two tries with her, I still had to let her go...TWICE. It was a roller coaster ride for eight months of the past year and five months with too many highs and lows to count.

One day, I'll be able to look infamous TV reporter Jim Grey in the eyes and say "I'm taking my talents to (insert some exotic destination)" like Lebron James did with his "decision." My hope is that the woman of my dreams also lives there. lol.

As I raise a glass of champagne to celebrate a new beginning, a quick look back on how I got here with Ms. S was simple.

I knew the relationship was headed downhill with no chance for recovery when we had a very uncomfortable and slightly public fight on New Year's Eve 2010 in front of her friends in a very crowded hotel room.

She told me the evening was going to be one way. It turned out to totally different. I was very uncomfortable from the start and after I had all I could stand, I politely said I wanted to leave. She didn't and told me I had to stay because she was staying and it would look bad if I left. When I gathered my things and waved goodbye to her friends and headed for the door. She grabbed her things and hastily said goodbye and caught up with me. We argued the entire way to her place and after about 20 minutes...I had tuned her out. Her lips were moving, she made menacing facial expressions but her words weren't audible. We eventually made up over the big fight but our relationship was never the same. I knew this day was coming and the expiration date was April 3, 2011. In one last attempt to salvage what I thought could be a dynamic relationship (when we were on the same page) went by the wayside when I cooked a romantic dinner for two at my place and she kept interrupting our dinner to text her schoolmate about a graduate class she was taking. It was an utter sign of disrespect that I'll never forget.

We briefly reconnected with a lot of tension in mid-April and that lasted until June 12 our last fight via phone over her not wanting to come to my place for once. I ALWAYS drove an hour and a half to go to her place with very little resistance but I had to beg her to come to my place.

I was done begging and after 30 minutes of going back and forth...I hung up the phone on her in frustration. It was a bad move on my part and I called back a couple minutes later to apologize. She cursed me out and said she never wanted to talk to me again. I called back one more time to apologize again and she gave me a stone cold attitude. We haven't spoken since.